A 19-year-old woman from Shandong province has inspired Chinese web users with her emotional diary entries documenting her battle with leukemia in a hospital ward.
Inspired by “The Hours of My Life“, a popular Japanese TV series about an art student living with ALS, Du Liyuan decided to record her daily life, not knowing when it could suddenly come to an end.
“(I want) to leave something that can be remembered by my family and myself,” Du was quoted as saying in a NetEase News report.
Du thought about giving up all medical treatment and going back to school in her remaining time. She also considered traveling to southern China, since she never had the chance to do so while studying. “But I can’t do that” Du told reporters. “Giving up my life is too selfish. My parents raised me and took care of me every single day when I was sick. If I refuse treatment, I’m letting them down,” she said.
Du was diagnosed with leukemia during the 2014 lunar new year holiday. Since then, she has received six rounds of chemotherapy and 25 rounds of radiotherapy. Nearly every day during treatment, she experienced low blood pressure, dizziness, vomiting and pain throughout her whole body.
What Du feels most sorry about, she says, is the expense of the treatment. “The medicines cost about 4,000 yuan a day. We’ve already spent more than 400,000 yuan since the lunar new year,” Du’s mother said.
“Maybe we are helpless in the face of illness and death, maybe we are frightened by ruthless diseases, maybe we lose our spirit and collapse, but when a glimpse of light enters my heart and illuminates the darkness, I choose to welcome hope, embrace the remaining time and enjoy happiness,” Du wrote in her diary.
She told reporters that she will continue to study nursing if she can recover. “I want to be a doctor of Hematology and create medicine that can cure my disease,” she said.
Doctors decided to carry out a stem cell transplant on Du using her father’s bone marrow, but she got an infection in hers lungs in November and the operation has been postponed until after her recovery.
By Dina Li